Solo. Bella. Christa.
"Only. Beautiful. Christa."
I'm sure you're probably thinking- "Well looky here, aren't you the conceited little one." Now, I'm not claiming that I'm the only "Beautiful" girl in the world. Heck No!! What I'm trying to say is that I am the only "Christa" in the world. I know there are plenty of other girls named 'Christa,' however, the message I'm trying to get across is:
"I am the
only me there is. There is
no other person like me in the
world at all. I am
beautiful, because I am unique and different.
No one can be me.
No other can be like me. So why not
be the best me i can be?!"
The more I say this to myself repeatedly, the more I try to become a better person and embrace the fact that I am the way I am. I recommend that you do this. I may be "SoloBellaChrista" but you can always be "SoloBellaLucy" or "SoloBellaDarcy" or "SoloBella(insert name here)."
I want you, the person reading this, YES YOU!! I want you to say my mantra every single time you look at the mirror or whenever you have time to tell yourself this. If you already do, then good job!! I am so proud of you! If you don't like my mantra or would like to upgrade or what not, then by all means! Do what you have to do! My mantra is just a template. Telling yourself you're beautiful and accepting who you are will make you feel so refreshed and mighty. (Or that could just be me, I don't know) Just Be Who You Are. Everyone in this entire world who doesn't try to become like someone else is the most beautiful in the world because there is no one like them. AT ALL! How does it feel knowing that you're the only you there is, in the entire world?!
Living in a society filled with all of this... wackiness... It can overwhelm a person. Growing up listening to criticism everyday, being constantly told you are not good enough, being reminded of the mistakes you have done, not being allowed to do things you want to do such as achieving your dreams... Whatever it is, I want you to know that life maybe hard now, but it will get better.
I may be only 17, but I've been through events I never want to go back to. There are things from my past that I wish I could forget but I just can't. I envy those who have it better than I do. I'm envious of those who get to hang out with their friends whenever they want to, or be able to have things I can only wish I had, or be places I can only dream about being. Sometimes I would think "Why does she get to have a pretty face and get everything she wants when she isn't even nice to people?" or "Why do they get everything they desire and not work hard for it?" I don't know if it's considered "hating" on a person because I don't exactly
hate them.. I just
envy them. Whenever I do this, that's when I would repeat my mantra over and over again because, the people I am envious towards are people that I don't really know. There might be more going on in their lives that isn't good. I don't know their full story.
The criticism, the envy. I try my hardest to not let it get to me. To not let it affect the person that I am. Because the moment I try to be someone I'm not and the moment I start listening to criticism and hate and care about what others think of me is the moment I lose myself. It would be the moment I will no longer be "SoloBellaChrista" and become "Just Like Everyone Else." If everyone in the world were to be "SoloBellas," then this society will finally have what it has lacked for so many years... Originality.
